Sweating for the wedding...uhh I mean dress.

 Never, and I mean NEVER in my life did I want to be in this situation where I feel I need to altar my body to fit into a wedding dress. Which I really dont have to. But after a VERY horrible appointment with a bridal dress boutique that ended in lots and lots of tears and coming home to stuff my face and crying on my fiance most of the night. We made a plan. I allowed myself time to have a pitty party. But the next day there would be none of that.

 Now, the most unhealthy thing we have been indulging in is Whataburger and that is twice a month. If even. My eatting habits really arent that bad. I've been sticking to a low carb lifestyle. Soda is a huge issue with us...But thats even been cut back and I meet my water goals every day. I just need to learn portion control!

 We joined a gym, been working out and now have a better eating plan. I am extrmly sore today after last nights workout and think today I will just swim laps, hit the hot tub and sauna after? I'm not sure yet. Im sure I'll hop on the treadmill and do some leg workouts. I really just want to wait to meet with my personal trainer before I do too much leg work. Last nights workout strained my knee and I'm thnking I need to rethink what Im doing.

 I am determined to drop about 15lbs before my next bridal appointment. Just because I feel like I would be more comfortable in a wedding dress. I've never really pictured myself in a wedding dress before. Even with my first marraige I wasnt feeling the whole wedding thing. I think deep down I knew it was a huge mistake to marry that horrible man. But I did. God bless the next soul who gets stuck with him! But with my fiance, I wanted this wedding. It didnt have to be huge. But I want to have something intimate, something special. I have an idea of how I want to look on our special day. But being the weight I am isnt working too well for me. So now, I am that girl who is going to altar her body for a dress.

 I could turn this around though. I'm not just altaring my body for a dress. I'm altaring my body to have a better life. To do more, to live longer, and to be healthy most of all! For now, i'm sweating for the wedding. But I wont stop sweating after that. I will continue to kick ass. I will meet my goals and then some. I am slowly killing my chubbs. Welcome to the funeral prep for my fat.

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